Halfway …

Posting from my phone. Let’s see how good this will be haha

So, we have made it to 20 weeks. This first half flew by! I wouldn’t be surprised if the next half drags out though. It is already hard enough to get a decent night of sleep, not only because I can’t find a comfortable position to sleep, but also because I have been having really vivid dreams – even nightmares sometimes.IMG_1780
I wake up feeling even more tired than I was when I went to bed the night before.
I had been feeling baby kicks and flutters mostly right on top of my bladder, but, for about a week now, I have been feeling them as high as my belly button. So, today, we got to see baby again and her legs are right up there! Even the technician commented on her long legs. Today we had the 20 week ultrasound, the one that checks all of the baby’s body to make sure everything is fine. Thankfully, our baby is healthy! I will never, ever take that for granted. I would certainly love my baby just the same even if something were wrong, but what parent doesn’t wish their kid is as ok as possible?
So, according to my math I am 20 weeks today, and according to LPD I would be 19+3. Either way, baby was measuring 20+2, sooo I’d say my math is probably more accurate than theirs!

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Today was also Dan’s grandpa’s funeral. Unfortunately, he passed away exactly a week ago today.
It was a beautiful service. He is the very first person I have ever known to die of natural causes, old age. He would have turned 95 on the 24th.
It is always hard to say good-bye, but this funeral had a different “feel” to me. I mean, we are ALL going to die someday, but to die of old age seems rare nowadays. It feels like diseases and accidents are taking our loved ones so early, so soon.
To see and hear nearly 95 years worth of memories felt fulfilling, if that makes sense. Ever since Helena has been born I worry about dying before our kids are grown up. Sometimes, I worry about this in an obsessive manner. The interesting thing is that Harold’s life, history brought me hope, hope that I can live longer than I fear I will. It certainly brought me some peace of mind.
I believe the key ingredient to the long life he had was that he was always busy. He never let his age mean more than just numbers, never an obstacle to get things done. He had lots of friends, was very sociable and extremely active.
I will certainly try and add that to my life. Maybe I will be lucky to live long enough to meet my great grandchildren too!IMG_1771-0

Anyways, it is definitely a girl. The ultrasound today confirmed it. And we have finally agreed on the first name: Olivia !!!
Now to find 2 middle names !
YaY – not !

19 weeks and counting … And we’re having a …

These last few days have been very busy and with ups and downs !!!

UC BABY_20My mom has finally arrived. So far, we are getting along fine.

Then, Dan’s grandpa got really sick and, unfortunately, he might pass at any time now. It is always hard dealing with a loss, but we want to focus on the long and prosperous life that he has lived. He would be turning 95 next week!!

Another sad thing that happened, that hit really close to home, was the fact that dan’s brother and his girlfriend, sadly, lost their baby, who was due to be born the same day as ours. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard the whole experience must have been, and I truly hope they can recover from it soon enough !

I got a little paranoid about losing our kid too. I don’t know. I guess just being due on the same day made me fear too. But, I have moved on from that feeling.

I just couldn’t wait any longer to find out if we are having a little boy or a little girl. So, I booked a gender determination 3D ultrasound appointment. Dan had to come back to town a bit earlier to see his grandpa, possibly, for the last time, so he was able to join us at the appointment.

So, there were me, Dan, Helena and my mom. We got there a bit early, and I started to ingest as much sugar as possible to make sure the baby would be moving during the session. Helena started crying when the lady started to scan my belly, I think she thought there was something wrong with me. But it wasn’t long until she could tell us that we are having a baby GIRL !! UC BABY_1

I wish I had recorded Dan’s reaction. Dan, my mom, my dad and my aunt were extremely confident it was a boy. I thought it was another girl all along, but their conviction made me doubt my senses at times. Dan just threw himself back on the chair, looking up at the ceiling and going like “ohhhh”. He was in shock haha

I was so glad that I had kept every little thing we ever bought Helena. We will certainly be saving some money.

My mom said to Dan that maybe next time it will be a boy and we were both like NOOOO!!  We love our babies, we love being parents, but 2 is all we can handle. We are glad our family will be complete soon.

One thing I find super interesting is that when we bought our house 3 years and a half ago, the family who owned this house had two girls. So, there was a girly yellow room and pink room. We never altered the rooms just in case we had a girl, or two,  for that matter. And, in case, we had a boy, we would change the room as needed. So, we are saving money on room decor, too, as we already have a girly room for our second baby girl.

I know I am talking a lot about savings, but I can’t help it. This pregnancy, compared to the last one, has been so  much cheaper haha  Dan said he is probably having 2 girls because he is cheap haha

Regardless, we have always known that the gender doesn’t matter. What truly matters is that the baby is healthy!

I just can’t believe that in a week time I’ll be halfway this pregnancy. It is going by crazy fast.

And now, to the hardest part: picking a freaking name!! I hate this part, honestly. Dan and I always disagree, and I always wonder if our kid  will hate the name we pick.

I have 5 names in mind. But there is one that really stands out. Dan is, currently, reflecting on it.  I hope he agrees because I just can’t wait to call her by her name !!!