Posting from my phone. Let’s see how good this will be haha
So, we have made it to 20 weeks. This first half flew by! I wouldn’t be surprised if the next half drags out though. It is already hard enough to get a decent night of sleep, not only because I can’t find a comfortable position to sleep, but also because I have been having really vivid dreams – even nightmares sometimes.
I wake up feeling even more tired than I was when I went to bed the night before.
I had been feeling baby kicks and flutters mostly right on top of my bladder, but, for about a week now, I have been feeling them as high as my belly button. So, today, we got to see baby again and her legs are right up there! Even the technician commented on her long legs. Today we had the 20 week ultrasound, the one that checks all of the baby’s body to make sure everything is fine. Thankfully, our baby is healthy! I will never, ever take that for granted. I would certainly love my baby just the same even if something were wrong, but what parent doesn’t wish their kid is as ok as possible?
So, according to my math I am 20 weeks today, and according to LPD I would be 19+3. Either way, baby was measuring 20+2, sooo I’d say my math is probably more accurate than theirs!
Today was also Dan’s grandpa’s funeral. Unfortunately, he passed away exactly a week ago today.
It was a beautiful service. He is the very first person I have ever known to die of natural causes, old age. He would have turned 95 on the 24th.
It is always hard to say good-bye, but this funeral had a different “feel” to me. I mean, we are ALL going to die someday, but to die of old age seems rare nowadays. It feels like diseases and accidents are taking our loved ones so early, so soon.
To see and hear nearly 95 years worth of memories felt fulfilling, if that makes sense. Ever since Helena has been born I worry about dying before our kids are grown up. Sometimes, I worry about this in an obsessive manner. The interesting thing is that Harold’s life, history brought me hope, hope that I can live longer than I fear I will. It certainly brought me some peace of mind.
I believe the key ingredient to the long life he had was that he was always busy. He never let his age mean more than just numbers, never an obstacle to get things done. He had lots of friends, was very sociable and extremely active.
I will certainly try and add that to my life. Maybe I will be lucky to live long enough to meet my great grandchildren too!
Anyways, it is definitely a girl. The ultrasound today confirmed it. And we have finally agreed on the first name: Olivia !!!
Now to find 2 middle names !
YaY – not !