48 days

Told ya time goes by even faster with 2 kids now!

It has been 48 days since we welcomed Olivia into our lives!

 

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It is funny, though, how time can be so relative! Sometimes it feels like 48 seconds, especially when I look at her and see how quickly she has changed and evolved already. Rolling from back to front, holding her head … 

Sometimes it feels like 48 years, as in I can’t recall what life was like before she was here. Actually, before BOTH of them were here.

It is cliché, I know, but life would be so boring, meaningless without them! 

  
Take this summer, for instance! We have been out and about, having so much fun! Before they exhisted, 80% of our free time would be spent in front of a screen. We would waste so much time just trying to figure out what to do.

I want my kids to look back someday and feel good about their childhood. I want them to remember how much fun they had growing up. Obviously, there are bad moments, too, which  always brings along a life lesson with them, so they, too, are important!

  
I love my baby girls so much! 

Helena is finally over her jealousy! It seems like there were three stages.

First, she was excited about her sister . A feeling of novelty, perhaps? Which lasted a few days.

Then she realized that baby wasnt going anywhere, which brought us to the second stage! She was constantly mad at me. She was able to associate the (brief) disappearance of my belly (I’m fat again, already lol) to the appearance of baby. To her, I was a traitor! This lasted a few weeks.  She was extra attached to daddy which, in turn, led us to the third phase! She would snap when Dan would have Olivia!

Now, nearly 7 weeks later, she has been wonderful! She doesn’t snap out of jealousy anymore! Sometimes she does ask us to put the baby away because she wants us to play or dance with her, but she doesn’t freak out.

When Olivia cries, Helena tries to help! She rocks the baby, gives her the pacifier… The other day I caught her giving  Olivia a bottle! It was the cutest thing ever!

  
She is such a loving big sis! I am so proud of her! 

Helena doesn’t talk much yet, but, in the last month or so, she had a crazy spike in her vocabulary. I’m pretty positive it is due to the fact that she has been socializing a lot!

I think it is abaolutely adorable that her friend, our next door neighbor, comes looking for her almost everyday to play with her outside. She loves it too!! So excited when he is at the door!

All of this makes me extra excited about her starting pre-school this fall! It is only once a week, which will be a nice break for me, but I am not gonna lie – I miss her already! It wasnt too long ago she was my 48-day old baby! 

Last Monday, the three of us had appointments. My 6-week appointment and paeditrician to the girls!

As a parent, it is always relieving to hear everything is ok with our kids!

Olivia was already at 10lbs even. Helena is still petite, at 25lbs, but the doctor said no to worry! It is just who she is! A petite girl! I don’t care what she looks like as long as she is healthy. 

  

There was a time I did care about people’s constant comments on her size because I thought it meant something was wrong or I was doing something wrong. Now that I know it is not the case, I dont care.

  

  
Olivia has some rash on her body, mostly on her face. I thought it was heat rash because it looks worse when she is really hot, but doc said it is most likely eczema. She also said it is normal in the first months. 

Other than that, I’m just trying to get more and more time alone with my girls to ease into this reality because my mom will leave soon enough.

I think I am doing much better at juggling two kids at once. Unfortunately, in order to get certain things done, it does take a little bit of not rushing to them whenever they cry.

I’m certainly proud of how much I can do on my own with them.

I’m also glad I got to have some alone time. I went to the movies twice with other moms ( MAGIC MIKE both times lol)! And to the salon with my mom! 

I’m still very sleep deprived, not so much because of Olivia, but mostly from anxiety! I cant just shut my mind off. It is constanly running!

I askedy my doc to put me on meds for a bit. This postpartum anxiety is a bitch! Excuse my language! I am a naturally anxious person, but it is definitely worse now! 

I’m fantasizing about an 8-hour uninterrupted sleep. I’m the only one on night-shift… Hopefully the pills will help me relax enough to get a better sleep, quality wise.

Dan finished changing the living-room flooring. There is still a bit of renos to be done, but I’m not stressing over it anymore.

   
 My goal is to get the house to look as good as possible, and be happy with it!

We have had out first guests in 7 months!!

I’m looking forward to having more playdates! Helena loves having friends to play with (duh! I know!).

 I guess that’s all for now!

My inspiration to write is gone! I am going to go back to facebook before I get too bored!

We are on our way to Midale, Saskatchewan.

 About a 13-hour drive!

  
Crazy, I know! 

 
Wish me luck!
L.

Quick Meals For The Busy Mom

Nearly 6 weeks into my new journey as a mom of two, I feel like I’m finally (somewhat) getting the hang of it ! Being able to make decent-ish meals while juggling a baby and a toddler requires quick, easy meals! Going to be sharing some of these with y’all!

When I go to the supermarket, I try to buy quick, easy pre-cooked meals so that when it is time to “cook”, I just mix and match whatever I have in the freezer/fridge!

I’m going to share a quick meal that turned out to be very tasty! Everyone loved it… no leftovers!

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I started with the baby potatoes since they were going to take the longest!

I seasoned them with Italian and some vegetable oil and left them in the oven for 20 minutes at 425 F.

While the potatoes were busy in the oven, I moved on to mixing up the ingredients from my ceased salad kit which takes like 2 seconds haha

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Once the potatoes were done, I got my fish into the oven right away. They usually take 25 minutes to cook, but since the oven was nice and hot, it only took 10 minutes!!!

When the fish was almost done, I got one of those frozen pasta meals in the microwave for about 5 minutes. AND THAT WAS IT!

A quick, health-ish, delicious meal ready in just 30 minutes!!!

I hope you and your family enjoy it too!

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The First Three Weeks

I thought time went by fast after having one kid, now with two …  Let me tell ya!

I had been meaning to post since the first week, but couldn’t find the time.

Unlike posting a status on facebook, I need some inspiration to post on here. And that requires my mind to be relaxed!

Right now, I’m alone with Olivia. In bed, listening to classical music. I have been hit by the wave of inspiration. 

Olivia is only 3 weeks, as of today, and it is amazing to realize that, even at such a young age, she has a personality of her own already!

Week Old Olivia

We were expecting her to behave somewhat like Helena as newborn, but they are nothing alike!

She is very calm, very quiet. She doesn’t even cry to eat at night, she mostly moans lol

Sometimes, I’m super busy with Helena and I can’t get to her rigjt away, then she cries. But, even then, it is not that loud.

In the first week, she would sleep a lot! To the point where I’d wake her up to eat, or else my breats would blow up.

Eventually, we had to get a pump…

She slowly transitioned to where we are at now. She still sleeps lots, of course, because she is a baby haha but she does spend quite a bit of time awake. When she is awake, she doesn’t want to be lying down. She wants to be sitted or walking around, she wants to be interacting, stimulated … 

I’m not sure what our feeding pattern is. I feed her on demand and haven’t paid attention to the intervals yet. But she has been eating a lot this last two days. Growth spurt, maybe? 

We have been co-sleeping again. It is the best way to get the most rest for me. I have been doing the night shift on my own because Dan needs to get up early to go work during the week. And during the weekend so that he is rested enough to take care of Helena during the morning so that I can stay in bed longer. 

  

My mom’s presence has been priceless. Having the opportunity to drop Helena off with her is giving me the chance to spend time with Olivia without the guilt of feeling like I’m neglecting Helena.

On the contraty, Helena wakes up in the morning and asks to go to Vovó’s place right away! It will be hard when she leaves!

  

I intend to try and spend time alone with the two before my mom leaves to try and get the hang of it slowly rather than suddenly once she is gone. I have spent very little time on my own with them.

  

It is summertime and it is going by so fast. We are trying to take advantage of it as much as possible so we haven’t really spent that much time at home.

Poor Olivia is sick of the carseat haha

Dan and I have managed to go to the theatre once since she has been born. We left them at my mom’s. It was awesome! Definitely helped us feel closer after all the changes in our routine.

  

If it wasn’t for the endless reno’s in this house, which puts a restrain on us, it would almost feel like honeymoon even with a newborn. It causes us to fight a lot because I am so sick of it. I can’t wait to have my home back and to be able to have guests!

My disgusting stairs

Speakin of renos… They are not done. Dan took a week off the week Olivia was born and he caught up a lot, but it has been slow again since he went back to work. I wish he would just let me hire somebody to wrap it up. As there isn’t much left to do. The biggest problem is the stairs. He has no clue what to do with it and wastes time trying to figure it out. All of this time is time he could be spending with us… enjoying summer. I’m about to just hire someone !

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As for Helena, I believe things have played out as expected. She loves her sister. Loves to hug her, kiss her and hold her. She tries to play with her, it is so cute! She brings her toys, and even tries to share her food with her.

  

Her problem seems to be with me. She seems to be mad at me, like I cheated on her or something… I naturally spend more time with Olivia than anyone else, and she realized she was the reason why my belly was big ! 

But nothing is worse than when Dan as Olivia! She snaps! We talk to her, but it is definitely a matter of time.

She also decided to use pacifier again, the carseat and tried to wear clothes of hers that were passed onto Olivia… 

  

Everything expected, so no surprises here! You just don’t realize how easy newborns are until you have a toddler!

How dif I ever think a newborn was a lot of work the first time around? LOL

Middle Names Reveal

Finally, we have settle on middle names!

Well, I had to pretty much impose it, though. I had these two names picked out for over a week, and Dan kept asking for more time to think… Like 9 months and 11 days wasn’t enough!

I hadn’t liked the names he suggested, and asked him to suggest others, and he just wouldn’t! Kept asking for more time.

So, I finally sad “that’s it, we gotta make this decision now!”

For lack of counter offers, we settled on my names !

Name reveal

Both Olivia and Laura are just names I like. I think they look and sound cute, feminine. Suely is my mom’s middle name which I thought would “roll” better with the other two names than her first name !!!

Choosing names is definitely a pain in the ….. I am glad to be done having kids and choosing names LOL

Birth Story

Last Friday night I began feeling mild menstrual like cramping. Nothing new there! I had been feeling this way on and off for a while now. It felt like it was about to pick up, but just wouldn’t. So, I asked hubby to help me out, not believing it actually would since it hadn’t worked the previous times. But I was SO done being pregnant, I gave it a try any way.

And I am so glad I did. A few minutes later, the pain picked up and it started to feel like contractions. They were all over the place though, not regular at all. Had them on and off throughout the night which kept me from having a decent night of sleep, for a change! I noticed they would happen more often when I was laying down which made me think it was false labor. I cleaned a bit and rested a bit between contractions. Throughout the day they were mostly 10 mins apart. Sometimes they were 8 minutes apart … When I called labor and delivery, they told me to go in when they’d be 5 mins apart. I didn’t think it would ever be the case, and was still thinking it was false alarm even though they were getting too painful to handle.

It got to a point where anything would trigger contractions: walking, sitting down, laying down. So they were happening constantly, back to back. The closest ones were 6 minutes apart. By that time, we were at my mom’s. We had stopped by for a visit, and I am glad we did because we left Helena there, made a quick stop at home to get a few things, and headed to the hospital.

When we got to the hospital, I thought it was probably going to be just a waste of time. I thought I wouldn’t be dilated at all yet, or I would be maybe just 1-2 cm dilated, and they’d tell me to go home.

As we were waiting to be assessed, I had another bad one that brought me to tears, which was good, because they really focused on me now. They got our info quickly and then checked to see how dilated I was right away. I couldn’t believe it when she said I was 5cm and I was having a baby “tonight”. That was around 9 p.m, Saturday, June 13.

I was concerned it could be getting too late to get an epidural so I asked for one right away. She said the doctor was at the O.R and there were three other patients ahead of me. That really scared me, I was afraid I would have to go til the end without drugs. The pain was too strong and it was making me exhausted. I wanted to be able to rest before pushing!

But I Kept working my way through each contraction with the help of the nurse, who was so nice! I couldn’t believe how much it was hurting!! My ob came in to see me. My water hadn’t broken yet and she was going to break it, but decided to postpone it til I’d get my epidural or else my labor would progress too quickly, and no time for my drugs! 

I was about 7 cm when the doctor finally came in and gave me the epidural. The procedure itself is painful and I was almost regretting getting it when I had one last contraction during the procedure. That one was so bad it reassured me about my choice. The other moms screaming in the rooms close to mine also reassured me of my choice hahaha

After I got the epidural, I could still feel the contractions. Not as painful, but pretty intense still which kept me from sleeping, but I still got to relax and rest before pushing. Dan got to nap for a couple of hours, too, which was great.

It didn’t take long from 7cm to 9cm, but I was stuck at 9 for the longest time, probably for about a couple of hours.  Olivia was having a hard time getting low enough for me to start pushing.  The doctor, which happened to be the doctor I saw the most at mom care docs, was the one taking care of me. It made a huge difference knowing the doctor and the resident – when I had Helena I didn’t know any of them. The doctor was so nice, so relaxed that it helped me rela, too. She said we were going to push Olivia down  before actually pushing her out. And so we did, I pushed for a bit just to get her low enough. Once we did that, I got to 10cm right away. They started to get ready for me to push. I overheard the doc asking for them to have a NICU team ready  because I was delivering a “toddler” lol.

I finally started to push. It was hard. Harder than pushing Helena out! I was giving my all, but she kept going back in as her head just wouldn’t go through. Her head finally went through, but then her shoulders were stuck a bit. They didn’t come out as quickly and easily as Helena’s did. Once her shoulders went through, that was it!

I pushed for 21 minutes, and Olivia was born  June 14, 2015, at 2:56 a.m, weighing 8lbs 1oz. But she didn’t cry! It was the scariest moment of our lives. Instead of tears of joy, we were freaked out! After Dan cut the cord, she was blue, completely blue and wouldn’t cry. So they took her to the side where they put a tube in to suck the liquids out, and massaged her chest. I was looking at the clock and it was almost 3 am when she finally started to cry. They said she didn’t breathe for 45 seconds, but I honestly think it was longer! She cried so quietly, but she cried! I was still worried, but once I had her on my chest, she began to get some color which was good.

After all of the procedure was done, including stitching me up (only 3 stitches), I got to nurse her right away. Oh my GOD! I couldn’t believe how quick she got the hang of it!

The hospital was packed! So many June babies, so we were not able to get a private room which I hated!

Call me fussy, but I hated having to share the bathroom, especially with the person I did. She was not courteous at all ! She would use the washroom and not clean her blood off the toilet seat! I had to wipe it off every time I would use the toilet. Unlike her, I was courteous enough to keep it clean for the next use.

I got really sad when they told Dan to leave because visitation hours don’t start until 8 am. Oh my, I just had a baby and was forced to be alone! I needed help with things like going to the washroom because my right leg was so numb and I didn’t want to have to call the nurse every single time!

I told them I wanted to leave right away, as soon as I possibly could. They said they needed Olivia to pee and poop before discharging us. I told them it was ok, but I wanted to be discharged as soon as she’d poop regardless of the time.

I could not believe how good I was feeling. It did not feel like I had giving birth at all! My whole body felt good, not sore, not tired. I napped for a bit after pushing and it had been enough, unlike with Helena where I napped for a really long time after giving birth!

My mom stayed with me during the day while Dan spent time with Helena. Helena came over to visit us a couple of times. I was so happy to see how well she welcomed her sister – that is a whole other post in itself.

Then when visiting hour was over, Helena and Dan came over again to pick my mom up. After dropping my mom off at her place, they were heading home when Olivia finally pooped! So I called him and told him to turn around to pick me up because I was discharged !!

I was so thrilled! You can’t imagine how sad I was to think I would spend that first night alone!

We got home at around 10 pm. So we were at the hospital for a little over 24 hours! It was a great experience! A great labor, a great delivery!

I am so grateful for living in a province that has such an amazing health care system! The hospital is amazing, the staff was amazing. The care after being discharged is amazing too. The very next day we were visited by a nurse who checked both Olivia and I at home ! And our only bill was $14.25 for the parking. I feel so blessed !

As for her name, we still haven’t come up with her middle names! They told us we have up to 3 months to make changes to her birth registration. Yeah, 3 months. ‘Cuz 9 months wasn’t time enough hahaha

Any suggestions ? hahaha

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Overdue

My due date has come and gone, and still no sign of baby.

I can’t express how frustrated and anxious I am!

 I think the worst part is the fact that I am not even dilated at all!!!

At my appointment, yesterday, they said that if Olivia is not born by my next appointment, June 18, they will do a membrane sweep and “fill the induction paperwork”.

Induction …

I can’t believe I am hearing these words! I don’t want to have to be induced! I have read so many stories of women being induced and not dilating, then their babies went in distress and had to have an emergency c-section. I really DON’T want to have a c-section! 

I have done everything ( safe ) I could possibly do to get baby out! I am feeling so emotional, and to be honest, a bit sad. A lot of things are not the way I thought they would be right now, and although I’ve accepted it, I can’t help feeling sad.

Like the house, for example. Still some reno left to do, still a mess. What bothers me the most is not being able to get certain things done myself. Having to wait on others suck !!!!

Having my mom here has been great help, and her having her own space made things even better. She can do all the cleaning she wants in her apartment! But now she is sick, and I am worried about it. Not to mention she might need to leave earlier than planned in order to receive the proper health care.

It feels like I have been re-living the same day over and over again. 

Nothing is moving forward!!!!

36 weeks and counting!

I just can’t believe it! In only 2 days I will be 37 weeks which means Olivia will be a full-term baby!

10488253_10204224857361899_7285812256128836296_nFeeling really blessed to have made it this far and I hope everything continues to go on well!

I would say we are 99% ready! Bags are packed, clothes are washed … really I just need to do some organizing in her room now – it always gets messy when more things are brought in.

My sister-in-law was kind enough to throw me a baby shower this last weekend. It was a lot of fun and we were given lots of diapers!!!

Diapers are never too much, that is for sure!!!!

Last week I had an appointment. Olivia is still measuring 2 weeks ahead. Everything seems to be fine. Still dealing with a bad case of anemia … Still feeling lots of pain on and off so I, honestly, think I must be, at least, a couple of centimetres dilated already. I am going to see my doctors every week from now on, which means I have another appointment coming up this week. This time they will be doing the swab and checking my cervix. Looking forward to finding out if there is any progress already.

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As for next week, my mom should arrive Wednesday and I’m hoping baby will hang on until then because I will really need her help.

Then, I am supposed to have yet one more ultrasound appointment next Friday. I don’t recall having these many when I was expecting Helena…

Still haven’t decided on her middle names which has been on my mind a lot. It is like Dan says, we used all of our creativity when naming Helena hahaha

Reno’s are still not done…….. Deck is built though and it has been very useful to be honest.

I was hoping Dan could be done with the flooring before Olivia arrives, but I really doubt it is going to be the case . I mean, he has a full-time job, and other commitments … it is unfortunate he will not accept help.

Mother’s Day was relaxing. We didn’t do much because I was feeling a lot of pain that day. We did go go the waterpark for a couple of hours because our tickets would expire…It’d be a waste of money. Dan spent most of the time with Helena while I chilled in the pool. He also gave me a prenatal massage gift card which was great. I had been wanting to go for one for the longest time, but, unfortunately, the massage wasn’t as good as I had hoped for. I think the lady who massaged me was doing deep tissue massage so it was really painful 😦 11147854_10204162459481991_3230341285527281892_n

Other than that, just trying to enjoy these last few days as a mom of one child, trying to rest as much as possible which has been hard since I wake up at 4 am every morning now – I have  no freaking clue why – then I can’t go back to sleep!!!

Trying to spend lots of quality time with Helena. She is absolutely in love with the weather. Loves being outdoors. As soon as she wakes up she grabs her shoes and our shoes because she wants to go to the backyard haha She is a summertime junkie!

You can imagine, I can barely keep up with her ! Thank God Dan is home everyday because he can keep up with her rhythm !

Family of 3 soon to be a family of 4!

Family of 3 soon to be a family of 4!

35 weeks and counting

OMG !! I can’t believe it has been about 6 weeks since I last posted. I swear it feels like 6 days to me.

As I have been saying all along this pregnancy, I just can’t believe how fast it is going by. I can’t believe soon enough we will be done with the first half of the year!!!

We have all been very busy for a change. There have been a couple of times I nearly posted, but I didn’t feel inspired. So, it is not just about time. It is about inspiration too.

During this time I have been away, I started seeing my new doctors, had two ultrasound appointments, had a maternity mini-session, and Helena’s bday. Oh yeah, and Dan is also back home! YAY!!! No more working out of town so we get to see him every evening now. I can’t express how happy, how grateful I am that he is finally back after working out of town for 1 year and 4 months!!!

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I have started seeing my new doctors. So far it has been great! The staff at Mom Care Docs is amazing!  They are very nice, very kind, and very polite. Completely different from the staff at Dr. Aiken’s office, which sucks because the Dr., herself, was really nice.

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Olivia 32 weeks

Olivia has been measuring two weeks ahead, consistently, which has put me in a panic mode. I wasn’t feeling ready to welcome her 2 weeks earlier. This whole measuring ahead thing is making things very confusing too. I had an ultrasound at 32 weeks in which she measured 34 weeks. Then, I shouldn’t have had another ultrasound for another 4 weeks, but instead I had another one done exactly 2 weeks later when I was 34 weeks, but measuring 36w4d. At least I got to see my baby girl twice!

I have also been feeling lots of braxton hicks as well as really intense pain in my stomach. The doctor said it is heartburn… I respectfully disagree as I do know what heartburn feels like, and this is not it. Either way, she prescribed Zantac for the pain and i have been taking it when I have heartburns. It does nothing to the stomach pain, though!

There have been a few times I thought “that is it, Olivia is coming!” and I freaked. I just wanted to clean. The house is a total mess all the time due to the endless reno and hurricane Helena. Okay, Dan and I are pretty bad too! Can’t blame it all on  Helena.

But since I had a very real false alarm, my nesting mode has been on full power. I have been cleaning like crazy, very thoroughly. Olivia’s room is almost ready. I just need to wash some clothes that are already clean, but they have been just sitting there for so long, I might as well wash them again. I just need to bring the rocking chair back into the room, and put the clothes away and prep my hospital bag. Then, she can come whenever! As it is right now, I am much more relaxed though. Even though the rest of the house is chaos, our room and her room, the washroom and the kitchen are good. And I’d say these are the most important areas for now.

Olivia is also big. She is hitting the 90% which is a bit scary to me as Helena was so much smaller. I am pretty much expecting her to come any time now. I just hope my mother will make it back to Canada in time!

Helena

We have been trying to spend as much time as possible with Helena. Really trying to get her to enjoy these last few weeks of an only child. I got her enrolled in a  couple of parented activities so she can spend extra quality time with us.

Last week, she turned 2. I cannot believe it still. It has been so intense. It is truly like they say, the days are long, but the years are short.

We threw a little birthday party to celebrate her birthday. We did it at the same place we did last year, but this time it was different because she truly got to enjoy it. She played with other kids, ate cake, sang happy birthday and blew the candles. OMG. She had a blast! And it made it all worth it! 11064735_10204115392705351_8526284882576475316_n

Love her so much even though she drives me crazy haha I feel like I have a twonager. OMG! She’s got so much attitude, she is so stubborn. It has been very emotionally draining dealing with her now. Sometimes I have no freaking clue what I am doing. But I try my best, and I believe things will work themselves out! She is also very funny. very intelligent! I can’t believe the things she does sometimes! She amazes me everyday. She is also very affectionate. She is always hugging mommy and daddy, and the cats! She is definitely extra happy now that she gets to see Dan every day. She loves it when he reads for her at bedtime. She is definitely daddy’s girl!

Us

Very, very happy to have Dan back home. When he started working out of town, Helena was only 7 months old. Now she just turned 2! It was a long time. Now that he is home everyday, renos seem to have picked up a good pace. But I don’t think we will be fully done before Olivia arrives. He has changed the carpet in all three bedrooms, is almost done painting. This week he will prep our backyard for the contractor to come and build our deck. I am really excited about having a deck. As it is now, our furniture is just all over the place in the backyard. I wanted it to look nicer and to be more practical with the kids.

Speaking of backyard, I have pimped ours with lots of toys for Helena. OMG. I am so thankful for warm days. We go outside and Helena plays so much while I chill in the hammock. Then all I have to do is feed her and send her to bed haha It is very helpful when you are 35 weeks pregnant. All I want to do is lay down all the time.11209627_10204106470322297_5295209901581767581_n

We also went for a maternity mini-sessions. Regular sessions are so expensive nowadays and, really, we don’t need a ton of photos. Not to mention that a 40-minute long session with Helena is not realistic. Our mini-session was perfect for us. It was quick (only 15 minutes long), it was cheap ( we picked the price!!!) and we got 9 photos. I was very pleased with the quality of the photos too. I just can’t wait to hang a couple of them on the wall.

We were also very blessed with the opportunity to buy an apartment. My mom will be staying it in when she comes for visits since we fight too much under the same roof. I am looking forward to this experience. It will be nice to know what it would be like to drop Helena off at grandma’s lol11150386_10204086832751370_5042854137725653672_n

I really wish my parents would move here someday. Who knows, maybe this apartment will give them a taste of living in Canada.

I guess this is all for now! Perhaps next time I post it will be my birth story already! I am getting anxious to deliver. It is so different when you kind of know what to expect. I keep thinking about the pain sometimes. If it will be easier, or worse. Either way, I just hope everything goes well and I am looking forward to meeting our daughter!

29 weeks and counting

We’re basically 10 weeks away from Olivia’s debut into this world !!! As I have said 1000 times before, I just can’t believe how fast this pregnancy is going.

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How am I doing? 

It feels a lot like the first trimester again. Lots of nausea and super tired all the time.  I have heartburn almost 24 hours a day and nothing seems to work. It feels like only an exorcism session would take this heartburn away!!!

My memory sucks!!! I forget a lot of things all the time. I got to the point where I forgot I was pregnant. Can you believe that? How can you forget something like that? I was absentmindedly sweeping the floor when I was hit by this intense nausea and I thought to myself ” Oh my gosh, could I be pregnant?” … A few seconds later I realized the obvious.

My appetite comes and goes, so I am not eating the greatest again.

Emotionally speaking, I feel overwhelmed and anxious. The nursery and Helena’s room have new carpet in. The painting in nearly done, but there is so much left to do still and, at the pace we are going, I don’t see this being done before Olivia is here. Her nursery is almost ready. It just needs a bit of cleaning and organizing. And I just need to remember to ask Dan to bring the nursing chair in.

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New Carpet !!!!

Then, it will be officially ready.

I have these three courses I want to finish before baby is here, but it seems impossible. I feel so disconnected from school, and I just failed a test (for the very first time). I think I can blame my failure a bit on this messed up memory of mine and the fact that they could not log me in for the longest time and I started my exam an hour later… So, by the time I started I was ready to be done! I can re-do the test which is great, but I am annoyed I am not rid of one more course. Still stuck with three. This experience really put school in perspective for me. I won’t be quitting, but I will definitely take on less courses at a time which means my grandchildren will be at my graduation ceremony 🙂

I am also sick and tired of Dan’s working out of town. I know it could be worse, a whole lot worse, but I just can’t take it anymore. I am so afraid of going into labor or something happening to me when he is not here.

This feeling of overwhelm combined with my exhaustion leads me to…. DOING NOTHING. Ok, maybe not nothing, but definitely not enough. It is like my mind is congested and I don’t even know where to start.

Appointments and OB-GYN

Let me start by saying a couple of things about the place where I was going to. Since the beginning of this pregnancy, I had been seeing doctor Amanda Aiken from the Alberta Associates of Obstetrics and Gynecology. Dr. Aiken is really nice, and I was pleased with her being my doctor. The staff, however, is really rude and unprepared. Another fact about this place is that they would only book my appointments either Wednesdays and Thursdays which is really inconvenient for me since Dan is not home those days.  They are open from Mon-Fri and they have had me there on a Monday, so I really don’t understand why they could not even consider accommodating my need.

Up to this point I had managed not to take Helena with me. This appointment, however, was book for 9 am. Most people are at work and I really don’t feel like asking people to watch Helena for me, especially at such an inconvenient time as Wednesday 8 a.m. So I canceled my appointment, and they rebooked it for the very next day – just as early as the previous appointment. So, I decided to take Helena with me. I confess I did not have a good feeling about it .

If they were punctual, I believe things would have gone well. But they don’t see you right away. Helena was doing fine until she saw this lady in scrubs. She freaked out. I think it made her think we were there for her, and made her think about the times she had to be poked by needles and have exams done. I just could not calm her down. I was trying everything I could to help her, but she just wanted out of there. I tried calling Dan and getting her to talk to him, I tried playing a cartoon for her, I tried everything, but she wouldn’t let go of the door.

Finally, one of the receptionists approached me and asked me to leave with my child because she was being too loud. “I’m sorry?” …  I lost it !!! I said to  him ” So, you guys bring kids into this world, but you don’t have the patience to deal with them? Trust me, I am not enjoying any of this! If I could, I would not have brought her with me. Also, how am I supposed to hear my name outside? Not to mention there is nothing outside but a hall and the elevator!!”

A bunch of people approached us when I raised my voice. Some of the other receptionists were all talking to me at the same time. One of them said that they were just trying to help. Really? By kicking me out? How is that helpful? Then another one of them was “kind” enough (please, do notice the sarcasm) to offer go outside and let me know when they call my name. I said to them “Don’t worry. I’ll go outside. But I am never coming back. This is not right, and this must be illegal somewhere!”

Then I left.

I started looking for another doctor and finally found a place that would take me if it is not a high-risk pregnancy which it is not, but they have to see my prenatal records before making a decision. So, I called my former clinic and I asked them to fax these docs to the other clinic and the receptionist is like ” Are you really leaving us? I am so sorry about what happened. We talked to him after you left. It is not right what he did.”  I explained to her that I think it is best I leave because there might be another time I need to bring my kid with me and I don’t want to go through this again. I also said that I read some reviews online and everyone mentions how rude the staff is there and that I wish I had seen that a long time ago, before going there.

So, they faxed my docs and the new clinic booked my appointment which is tomorrow. The receptionist is very friendly and I asked her about bringing my kid with me and she said it is no problem at all and explained how the rooms were large and all.

Therefore, it has been a really long time since I saw a doctor which is a little annoying this far along my pregnancy. I had my diabetes test and still haven’t had a chance to talk about my results. I got a phone call after my test saying that I had very low iron levels and was prescribed a medication. Other than that, nothing was said about my blood. I am on this medication now. I was hoping it would boost my energy, but not really.

Let’s see how it goes tomorrow! I hope baby is doing ok! She has been so active. She seems to be much more active then Helena was. I feel her moving and kicking all the time. I hope I get to see her again some time soon too!!!

27 weeks = Third Trimester – – – running out of time

WOW !!!

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Bye, carpet!

Where did the second trimester go? I can’t believe how fast this pregnancy is going by. I wonder if each pregnancy feels faster than the previous one.

I guess I will never know. We are so done at 2!

I hadn’t felt anxious during this entire pregnancy so far. Now, I definitely am. Not to meet the baby ( not that I don’t want to), but I am anxious about getting things done before she gets here. We decided to do some reno’s in our house and now we are literally caught up in the middle of a big mess. It all started with me wanting to steam clean the carpet in Olivia’s room, but then Dan said we “might as well change the carpet”. Then I said, then we might as well change all the flooring if we are going to get this started. So, this is what is going on right now. Dan is painting the house and changing the flooring. Problem is, he wants to do it all on his own which is great, but not very practical when he is home for only 3 days and gone for 4. Right when he is getting things going, it is time for him to leave. So, Helena and I find ourselves in this war zone looking house which is driving me nuts!!! I just can’t wait for it to be all done and I hope it will look nice.

One other thing I wanted to get done before baby is born was to get a new vehicle. I am glad we got this done. I finally got my dream vehicle: a van ! haha Go ahead, laugh at me! But I’m super happy with it. I love the room and I love how comfortable Helena is in there. In my previous car, Helena would cry the whole time. It felt just too tight in there. Now, with more room AND a dvd player, Helena has no problem staying in the van. It makes me want to go for a road trip some time soon!

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Giving daddy a hand!

I have already gone thru Helena’s clothes one by one, separated everything than is still in good condition for Olivia to inherit – there is a lot !!! Having two kids from the same gender is a money-saver!  So, basically now I just need to wait until dan is done with with the carpet installation in the nursery so I can start moving things in there – furniture … clothes ( which are like all over the house ).

Then we need to get a double stroller. And I guess that is it LOL Hopefully! Then we can just sit back and wait for her arrival!

How am I doing?

I have felt nausea again these last couple of days … I HOPE this does not mean nausea and vomiting will be coming back to stay during this trimester. I am finally eating better and not losing weight. I hope to stay this way until the end now.

My energy level has gone down hill too. I am so tired all the time. I haven’t been sleeping well either probably because of everything: anxiety to get things done, hard to find a comfortable position, having to pee in the middle of the night …

Emotionally, I haven’t been feeling that greatest either – THANKS HORMONES!!!

Dan’s working out of town has started to affect me again. I guess not only am I sick of him having to go and interrupt what we are accomplishing when he is home, I am also afraid of going into labor or something with him being gone.

Ever since he left this week I have been feeling really $hitty. On top of that Helena has been sick and just not feeling right.

I don’t want to feel this way for too long – who does, really?- so I am going to try and push myself to work through this!!!

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AHHHHH!!!!